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Thursday, January 8
superficial. i give up tryg so hard. i give up tryg to put up a strong front & act as though nthg's happening. no, im not hurt. im just... idk. as much as i dont like it, i just have to admit th fact that all yr previous are just better off than me. maybe im just not good enough, maybe idk how to be a good one, maybe im just not up to yr expectations, maybe afterall you did make a mistake which you haven't realise. its harder than what i thought i guess. i need time. i just cant possible do a miracle switch-over in just a period of a week. in th first place, im just questiong myself. was i even rdy fr this? its not like as if i didnt put in much thoughts into it. im always gettg myself into a situation. always. but thank god fr me, th faith is still there so i wont walk away yet. its just th beginng. i'd rather bottle everythg up inside than talk it out with you cause i'll just end up creating a whole mess tht i can't bear to put up with. there's so much thgs fr me to say but idk how to put it out in words cause i'll just end up losing everythg at th very end. so afterall, i was wrong. you still dontknow me well enough. i thought you did but oh well, nevermind. & im havg insomnia now, its 5.12am & i cant sleep. sometimes we expect more from others cause we're willing to do tht much fr them. agreed much. maybe you see it, maybe you dont. but im tryg my very best. i really am. mm. |