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Monday, December 1
hugs & loads of kisses.  i love life th way it is now. firstly, im hired yes yes yes yes. best of all, i'll be working from home dg some data entry stuffs. srsly, idk wht to expect frm this job. but whateva, th pay's not bad. was supposedly to be working w KFC's call centre with faten & huds but i swear th environment there is eeky with matreps & minahreps. ALOT OF THEM. trust me when i say alot. anyway, mom said this data entry thing is way better & i think i just have to go agree with her. furthermore, i'll just have to be dg my assignment at home. but wahlau, cannot merayap. on a brighter note, it'll be on my own conveniences right. flexi hours. just that i need to keep up w th due date & stuffs. im so sorry you girls i have to go ditch tht KFC thing. you girls should understand, right. (: sometimes, i just think you're just too good to be true. yes, im sorry fr doubtg you but i dont think you'll ever understd how it feels to be let down over & over again aft opening yr heart to a whole new person. im shattered. shattered seeing you go through all those just to show me what love is. i cant deny as a matter of a fact tht im stubborn-headed, hard-headed & is always wanting things to go my way. to think of it, who am i to be tormenting you in that sort of way? im in no sort of position to be dg so. you're so near yet so far. but im thankful fr this love/hate relationship. however, th faith is just not there yet, not there. it hurts to see you havg so much confidence in everythg yet im here doubtg every single word, every single action of mine. if only you'd know how i feel.. i feel like crying now, cause i miss you. (omg hazz, since when were you THAT emotional?!) i'll be away to Melaka from 2nd to th 5th. i feel like a sucker now cause that means i wont be able to wish him happy bday when it strikes midnight on th 3rd & worst still, i wont even be around on th 4th fr his bday. awesome hazz, just very very very awesome. -.- oh & have i mentioned, I MISS SCHOOOOOOL! i rly rly rly rly do. i miss wearing my uniform. i miss putting on those hideous metal buttons, i miss canteen food, i miss talkg to th stall aunties, i miss studyg/payg attention while smsg in class, i miss playg unruly soccer w th guys, i miss running from class to class, i miss squabblg w all those annoying souls ard me. but most of all, I SWEAR FRM TH VERY DEEEP BOTTOM OF MY HEART THAT I MISS MALAY LESSONS. i miss doing utter nonsense like making our own dance moves in malay class while paying no attention to boys giving us th wht-th-fuck-you-girls-dg kind of blank look. i miss giving ferozd monkey faces. i miss disturbing haliq & callg him names (but you know i dont mean it right? right.) i miss locking th others out of class & hiding underneath th tables, pretendg tht there's no one in class. hahahaha bloody hell childish, i know. POINT IS, I MISS SCHOOL. agree with me someone! i miss you, how? :( |